The hurt was wrapped around my axle, and I couldn’t move.
There are a few flavors of Miss Cranky here in the She Remembers Out Loud energy. You might recognize yourself in more than one.
The first version of the cranky pants energy entirely skips the retreat part. The experience ends, and instead of pausing to let it settle, she moves straight into the next one. She’s too hasty when the required processing in this energy gets treated as optional.
I’ve watched this play out in other people, including my own brother. He went from one relationship straight into the next, over and over, no pause in between. When I notice that tendency in my clients, I try to encourage them to take a real pause before jumping into something new.
The second version does retreat, but can’t quite get to the wisdom yet. Sometimes it takes a while before you can see the lesson in an experience. I’ve had times where I was so caught up in the hurt, it was like the hurt was wrapped around my axle and I couldn’t move forward. Ugh. It’s like I was trapped. That frustration is worth talking about, because it’s the energy of the middle of the process. The trick is to unwind the hurt so you can move forward to better.
And then there’s the privacy piece. This energy truly needs solitude to do its work. When that solitude isn’t available, the wisdom stops being accessible. It’s not gone. It just doesn’t have anywhere, enough room, to complete its formation.
Underneath all of this is a low hum of: “I’ve been through so much. I know there’s something important in all of it. I just can’t quite get to it yet.”
Find your happy. Love what you do. Make a difference. Come back to me safely. See ya!
