Remember the dating story I shared yesterday? I so wanted connection. But I pulled back. Every time. That connection scared me to a level where I’d shut down a relationship the moment it started advancing to something deeper.
One man I was dating, John, was just the sweetest, most thoughtful person. The kind of fella who came to my office and left flowers on the windshield of my car while he was driving to work. What kind of idiot breaks up with that guy? Me. I did. He was incredible. But he scared the shit out of me. So I ended our relationship.
Even now, so many years later, it doesn’t make sense to me. Well, it wouldn’t, if I hadn’t been through my Learning Journey. It was the craziest thing. I was turning away from exactly what I wanted. Who does that? The person who’s in the cranky version of the She Wants Connection, On Her Terms energy. That’s who.
This is Discord. It doesn’t always look like obvious conflict. Sometimes it’s just friction you can’t explain. Tension with no clear source. Unease about letting someone in a little further.
In the Cranky Pants version of She Wants Connection, On Her Terms energy, you read that discomfort as a warning. You decide the person can’t be trusted. You stay guarded. You keep people at a careful distance, but at the same time, wish they were closer.
Underneath it, you’re thinking, “What if I let them in, and it goes wrong?”
Find your happy. Love what you do. Make a difference. Come back to me safely. See ya!
